Recovery Day 73 - 28th February 2013

Woke up at 08:30, my right cheek was still harder and more swollen than the left and I had shooting pains in my left ear. I felt and looked awful but had no choice other than to get up as I had a meeting in work. I took some painkillers, got dressed and left. Matt drove me to my meeting as work is about an hour away and I'm not confident driving long journeys yet because my ear issue is effecting my balance and I'm worried I'll go dizzy and crash my car. I've been stressing about being off work lately and I felt very reassured after my meeting so now I can put that to the back of my mind and focus on my recovery. 

On the way home I called Mr D's secretary and asked her about my hard, swollen cheek. She said she would speak to Mr D and get back to me. When we got home Matt made us some pancakes for lunch. Then he went to work. It was a nice, warm afternoon and I was in quite a lot of pain so, to try and take my mind off it I spent some time in the garden. We've had some naughty moles digging up our lawn so I flattened some mole hills and did some weeding. I didn't do anything too strenuous but it was nice to get some fresh air. 

After spending some time in the garden I did some cooking for tonight and tomorrow's tea making spaghetti bolognese and chilli and had a little tidy up. By this point I was drained, tired and sore and was really struggling with sharp pains in my right ear. I just wanted to go to bed really but it was far too early. I'm disheartened that with one thing and another at the moment I'm in more pain now than the first few weeks post op. I got ready for bed then Matt popped home from work and we had some chilli for tea. 

When he went back to work I went to bed and watched TV with dogs. The dogs really have been great company for mr during my recovery and they know when I'm in pain or feeling down. I set my alarm for 08:27 in the morning so I could call the doctors at 08:29, any later and I'll be struggling for an appointment. Unfortunately Mr D didn't get back to me so I'll go to the GP, I know how busy Mr D gets. 

I fell asleep about midnight. 

Recovery Day 72 - 27th February 2013

Woke up at 9am, I was very sore and puffy with a bad headache. I took my morning painkillers and got up. I'm dreading teeth brushing at the moment as its excruciatingly painful. My skin crawls and my eyes water. I've resorted back to using a baby toothbrush softened with hot water. I'm usually a serial tooth brusher, brushing my teeth 8 times a day at least, but not any more. I can't physically bring myself to do it.  I honestly can't describe the feeling other than sharp electric shocks , but they are horrible and take your breath away. 

It was a lovely bright morning so we went for a nice walk with the dogs. It's the first time it's been warm for ages. We were treated to a temperature of 8.5degrees!! And half way round our walk I had to take my gloves off. After our walk we had some corned beef hash and sweet potato that my mum had made us. It was really nice. 

In the afternoon I came across shattered so I sat on my bed with a blanket playing candy crush, I took some tablets and had a glass of water. In the evening mum and I went out for tea to our local Indian restaurant. They were very accommodating and made my food without meat and ensured everything was very soft me. I had the usual of chicken tikka masala minus the chicken and sag bhaji which is flavoured spinach. During dinner mum said my right cheek looked very swollen and hard. She was right, it was swollen and much harder than the left cheek. I'm going to ring Mr D in the morning to see what it may be. I'm pleased that finally my lips have healed and are no longer chapped thanks to the Blistex relief cream.

After tea I went home and chilled out before having an early night. Got to sleep reasonably early. 

Recovery Day 71 - 26th February 2013

Woke up at 8:15 and felt well rested but I still felt rubbish. Sore head, cheeks, teeth and gums, an annoying chin and slightly deaf hearing. I got up right away and got a drink to take some tablets. I then got washed and dressed, changed my forever snapping bands and lathered the chilli cream on. 

At lunchtime Matt came and picked me up and drove me half way to my friends, where they exchanged me and she drove me the rest of the way to hers. For lunch I had ready brek but didn't really eat much of it, as I didn't have much of an appetite and I was really sore. 

After lunch me and three friends went on a cupcake decorating course, it was a perfect afternoon for me because I didn't have to talk much, I got to spend time with friends and be creative. Although I couldn't eat anything, I Iced 10 cute cupcakes... One of the family will polish them off!! 

After 5 hours of concentration I was shattered and very sore, Matt picked me up and he was treated to a very quiet journey home. By the time we finished it was too late to eat so I took some tablets and went to bed. I drifted off very easily as I was literally exhausted. 

Recovery Day 70 - 25th February 2013

I woke up at 8:30 and without sounding like a broken record, I woke up the same as I do most mornings. Groggy, deaf and sore! Oh how I long to wake up of a morning and actually feel refreshed and ready to take the day! I don't feel groggy for the whole day though and once I've been up for an hour or so the thick head does lift but the pain lingers around all day. Especially the teeth and gum pain.

I woke up really hungry so I had some ready brek with cinnamon on for breakfast, it was only 10:30 and I was already frustrated with the pain. The teeth and gum pain goes deep, to the root of the teeth or so it feels but today my actual jaw joints are sore too and if I touch the end of my nose that's sensitive too. To help take my mind off it I set about some tasks at home, first I stripped the bedding from the bed. The dogs thought this meant playtime so I had to raise my voice to them. When I raise my voice I obviously move my mouth in a way that triggers movement in my chin resulting in very unpleasant sensations so that made the bed changing stressful!! 

After changing the beds I had a little clean upstairs and had a sly play on Candy Crush! My chapped cut lips that have lingered since the operation are finally starting to clear with the help of the Blistex relief cream. I'm slathering it on every hour or so but it's doing the trick! 

My dad had brought me some nice soups to have for lunch this week but I left them in their fridge so it meant my lunch today had to be tuna.... Which I was feeling or tinned tomato soup which I hate!! Ooohhhh decisions decisions! I went for the tinned tomato soup and with a load of salt and pepper it actually tasted ok. After lunch, some painkillers and a little sit down I cleaned downstairs then it was time for Matt to come in. 

We picked mum up from the train station then went for a walk with her and the dogs to the beach. I love getting fresh air but it was freezing. My chin, where I rub the chilli cream in was burning like mad when we were walking into the wind and this is normally numb, good sign?

After our walk we went home and I made macaroni cheese with baby pasta for tea. I've never eaten so much pasta in my life but its so easy to get down its perfect at the moment. I was stuffed after tea and we spent the evening watching the soaps. By 10:30 I was tired and sore so I took some painkillers and went to bed. I fell asleep nice and early... I thank the fresh bedding for that. 

Recovery Day 69 - 24th February 2013

Wow what an awful nights sleep, it comes as no surprise that I woke up feeling so awful this morning. My head was groggy and heavy, my hearing was dull, my teeth and gums were aching and my chin and gums were agonisingly sensitive... Again! 

We were up and out for 10:30 going to meet mum and dad for breakfast. I didn't have any appetite and I just didn't feel right, I felt choked up and emotional and I couldn't put my finger on why.  After breaking down in a hysterical heap and receiving some loving words and cuddles from mum, dad and Matt and a cuddle from my doggy brother Barney, I felt a bit better so we headed out for breakfast. I just had my usual of scrambled egg while everyone else had big dirty fry ups!! Grrrrrr after breakfast we had to tackle a food shop. One place I can't be bothered with at the moment is the supermarket. With such annoying dietary requirements I've found the only way to make life easier is to really plan each meal and make a list. That way when I'm in the supermarket I'm focussing on buying what's on the list opposed to fantasising about what foodie much rather be eating! After shopping dad treated us to a hot chocolate complete with marshmallows and whipped cream! I was all grown up and managed to drink it from the glass cup it was served in.

After shopping we went home, I'm was freezing and had a total lack of energy so Matt put the shopping away while I had a cuddle with the dogs by the fire. After a little sit down we got all wrapped up and went for a walk with mum, Binky and Boo and Barney. We managed 40 minutes but had to return home after that as it was bitterly cold and started hail stoning! Mum made me sweet potato mash and gravy for tea and jelly and ice cream for dessert. 

I feel a bit disheartened today because the sensitivity of my chin has worsened again after a brief improvement which is making talking difficult again. I'm feeling in a real lul at the moment where I feel there's been no real big improvement for a week or so and I feeling in more pain now with one thing and another than a month post surgery. It is normal for this to happen apparently as feeling returns but I've found it frustrating. 60% of my gums,  my lower right lip and chin is still totally numb but everywhere is else is pretty much back to normal which is really good considering the amount of numbness post op.

We left mums at about 10pm and I went to bed with some painkillers as my head was banging and my lower jaw was aching.... Not sure why? After a minor struggle, I eventually got to sleep about 1am 

Recovery Day 68 - 23rd February 2013

Woke up this morning with a headache, deaf, aching gums and teeth and felt generally groggy.  I got up straight away as to try and relieve the deafness and I put some Blistex on my lips. Im hoping this is going to be treatment that works for this persistent blistering.... They're definitely looking better already.the right hand side of my face is more swollen than the left today... Which is annoying.

I'm dreading every time I brush my teeth at the moment and this morning was no exception, I can't explain the pain but its horrible and sends a shiver down my spine and brings tears to my eyes. It's similar to the chin sensations but worse. After getting a shower, changing my bands, drying and straightening my hair, I thought I'd put some make up on to see if I could make myself feel normal. My skin almost felt stingy and sensitive when I put foundation on and I just had to avoid my chin! My face still doesn't look like mine when I smile, to me it looks like I've piled 20 pounds on in my face. 

My mum came round for lunch so I made sweet chilli pasta, she had it with baby pasta too and it went down well. After a little catch up we went to my aunties. It was lovely to her and my uncle and my cousins popped round too so that was nice. My Aunty hasn't seen me for a few weeks and she said my face has gone down a lot. To me it looks the same but that's probably because I'm looking at it I the mirror a million times a day!! My little cousins were being monkeys messing around, I tried to shout at them but i couldn't because the movement from my chin was too painful so I got mum to do it instead!! 

In the evening I couldn't decide what I fancied for tea so mum said that Matt was to decide on my behalf... He chose Indian take away as he knows this is my favourite at the moment and is easy for me to eat . I got chicken tikka masala minus the chicken, with rice and spinach. Yum yum yum After tea we just chilled out at home. By the evening I was drained, tired and sore so I got an early night. Unfortunately I didn't get to sleepy until after 2am as my head was full of.... Stuff 

Recovery Day 67 - 22nd February 2013

I woke up at 9am and felt awful, headache, sore teeth and gums, aching cheeks and back to having a sensitive chin. I was also quite deaf this morning. Matt got up and sorted the dogs out and brought me a glass of milk up so I could take some tablets. I sat I bed for half and hour or so to see if sitting up would make my head feel any better and to give the pain killers a chance to work. There wasn't much of a improvement all morning and as well as the mentioned issues I also had a stomach ache and felt sick. The swelling is doing really well at the moment, it still fluctuates depending on jaw usage but the main swelling points now are my cheeks and they look puffy more than anything. 

I got up and had two poached eggs for breakfast mashed up with salt and pepper on them, I quite enjoyed them but still didn't feel right. I took advantage of not having to leave the house by lying on the coach for the majority of the morning and Barney was only too happy to keep me company! I just couldn't find the energy or concentration to do anything. At lunch time I got washed and put a bit of make up on in an attempt to feel a bit brighter but it didn't work. I started feeling even more sick so I had some ready brek to see if I felt like this because I was hungry? The ready brek made me feel marginally  better but I still felt like poo. I just wanted to go back to bed but was adamant to say sitting up, this headache and hearing problem is defiantly down to Eustachian tube dysfunction and the doctors have said sitting up helps the mucus drain. 

Dad popped round at about 4pm and he kept me company for a few hours before we both went to pick mum up from the train station. To tip me over the edge further mum and dad went to McDonald's for tea. The aroma of burgers and chips whizzing round my head was making my mouth water but there really isn't any meal I can eat from McDonald's so I just had a banana milkshake. I was proud that I managed to drink it from a straw, but I could only successfully suck with the straw positioned in the left side of my mouth. When we got back to mum and dads I still felt awful and wasn't fussed about having any tea. Obviously mum and dad wouldn't let me not have anything so it was decided I'd have fish pie. I had a look in the mirror at my lower jaw in my mouth as something was really hurting it, there are quite a few wires sticking out of my brace at the moment and I think one has been pressing on my gums and has kind of bruised it so I've pushed a bit of wax over to see if that helps. The fish pie was actually lovely and mum mashed it all up so it was easy to eat. 

I stayed at mum and dads until Matt finished work then he came to pick me up. It was nice to get out and I enjoyed their company. It helped to take my mind off this annoying pain. Pain in the head and mouth is horrible, it makes you want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep. My lips are also very chapped and dry, this has been going on since the surgery and they won't fully heal. Dads given me some Blistex Relief cream to try. 

I went to bed at about 11:30 and felt really hot, sick and still had a headache. I managed to fall asleep quite easily but kept waking up through the night feeling yucky. Hope I have a better day tomorrow.

Recovery Day 66 - 21st February 2013

I had a really great sleep last night but still felt hungover and groggy this morning. After some tablets Matt made us pancakes for breakfast then we got ready for the day. The weather was nice, fresh and sunny but very cold. I got all wrapped up and took the dogs for a walk. We walked for over an hour and it was really enjoyable. My face was a little achy and stingy with the cold wind but it was still enjoyable. 

When we got home I took some painkillers as I had a headache and an aching face and my teeth and gums were really hurting. I've started applying the chilli cream quite thickly and it drys like a white crust on my face... Not attractive but it seems to be doing something. The chin shocks aren't as bad but the gum ones are just the same. 

After such a walk I'd got a bit of an appetite, I had a tub of chicken and vegetable broth, I warmed a bit of that up and it went straight in the bin, it was vile! I didn't do much this afternoon other than try and get warm, my face was frozen from the walk so I lay by the fire with the dogs. They were worn out and both insisted on napping on top of me.

As dad was busy I had to pick mum up from the station, I was glad to get out for a little run in the car as it breaks the afternoon up. I still don't feel 100% confident driving in the dark, on the way home mum hinted at a chippy tea. I couldn't face anything from the chippy but I took mum anyway. On the way home she ate some fresh onion rings she'd got from the chippy , they smelt amazing and with every mouthful, chew and swallow she took I felt more frustration and hatred towards her. I'll let her off, but eating fresh chip shop onions rings with salt and vinegar in the confined space of a mini convertible was damn right cruel! I dropped mum off then nipped to dads shop to collect his dog Barney who I'm looking after for a few days. 

After I'd collected Barney I fed the dogs then raided the fridge, we've still not been shopping as Matt is working awkward shifts! I decided on stuffed potatoe skins. I baked some potatoes until soft, cut them in half and scooped out the flesh. I then added milk, butter and salt and pepper to the flesh then mixed in some cut up bacon and sweetcorn. I put the mashed flesh back into the potato skins and topped with grated cheese. I then put them back in the oven for 15 minutes, they were yummy.... Another improv tea! 

When Matt came home we watched some trash TV, I was still struggling with sore teeth and gums, in the end I couldn't stretch my pain killers out anymore so at 10:30 I took some pain relief and went to bed. The pain killers aren't taking the pain away though and it's making me really miserable. The teeth have been sore for a few weeks but the gums is a newish thing, it's a very annoying, draining, constant pain. 

As Barney was sleeping over we let him sleep in our room as a little treat, he was very good and didn't make a peep all night, I was awake tossing and turning.... No relief from pain is getting me down. I mentioned the increased pain to my doctor the other day, she said even though I've been eager to get all my feeling back it's been hiding a lot of the pain. I'm wondering if my feeling is coming back and highlighting the pain even more? 

Recovery Day 65 - 20th February 2013

I'm getting just about fed up of waking up and feeling so awful, sore teeth and gums and a banging headache don't exactly make me want to jump out of bed and face the day. I had an early morning meeting with work so had no choice other then to get up and get on with it. My head was really pounding and my lower jaw bone was throbbing too (this is a new one!) my chin and gum is still very sensitive and brushing my teeth is still unbearable. Normally I brush my teeth after every meal, thoroughly with my electric toothbrush but at the moment I'm really struggling to manage with a baby toothbrush softened with warm water at the moment... That is just how unpleasant these sensations are. 

My meeting in work was short, I was grateful as I really didn't feel too good, as Matt had driven me I treated him to a McDonald's for his lunch. We studied the menu and my choices were very limited.... Milkshake or ice cream. When we got to the ordering point we were advised that there we no milkshakes. So ice cream it was. It was only 11am and the ice cream wasn't flowing down well at all so after two spoonfuls I gave up. 

For lunch I had shepherds pie that mum had made for me, I'm still struggling to find the strength in my jaw to chew so soft foods are still On the menu. I managing to drink from a glass a little more but if I'm tired or in a lot of pain I just use my sippy cup.  In the afternoon I just chilled out at home, doing some work on the iPad, sending a few emails and looking at houses. 

Matt has decided that I'm not allowed to go food shopping on my own so the house is low on supplies... So for tea I just had to use what I had in. I made my special baby pasta with onion, bacon, crushed petite pois and garlic and cheese sauce with roasted red and orange peppers. Considering this was a improv dish it was yummy. I would defiantly recommend Asda stelline pasta for soft diets. It's been a life saver for me, and is typically used in soups and salads. 

In the evening I went to bed early and watched some TV. I dropped off to sleep easily 

Recovery Day 64 - 19th February 2013

Aargh I had a amazing sleep last night, so was disheartened to feel so rough when I woke up. Matt had arranged a meeting with a mortgage advisor this morning as our house is up for sale so I forced myself to get up so I could go to the meeting with him. So after I'd 'come too'a bit and taken some painkillers I got up and carried out the morning routine. My face was quite puffy this morning and extremely sore, mum has diagnosed this as "over doing it yesterday" to be fair she is probably right.... Grrrrr dont you hate it when that happens!!

It was really icy outside and there was a really thick frost covering the cars and the fields at the front and back of the house were white. Normally these are perfect dog walking conditions but for me but at the moment the colder the weather the more painful my face. So it was a massive coat, scarf, hat and gloves for me! 

After our meeting we headed home and I made some lunch of baby pasta, baby button mushrooms, red onion and tiny bacon pieces and roasted tomatoes with sweet chilli sauce. This is one of my favourite dishes at the moment, it's tasty, healthy, easy to eat and its easy to adapt it to a Matt friendly dish too... With adult pasta

In the afternoon we put the heating and the fire on and spent some time looking for new houses on the Internet, this was the perfect afternoon task as I was pretty drained and tired so it was good to relax. I think you'll see from the picture that Boo was also very relaxed asleep on my bottom!  At 5pm we went for a house viewing but we were disappointed with our findings! 

In the evening we went to mum and dads, Matt made them pancakes for dessert and I kept quiet and played Candy Crush on the iPad because my jaw was tired. I just had a few pancakes for tea as I was still full from lunch. 

When Matt had finished Pancake duty he went to play football for an hour so I stayed with mum and dad. 

I was getting a funny sensation in my numb lower lip this evening, not the usual electric shocks (although I was still getting them) but a little flutter almost like somebody was tickling it with a feather. I poked it with a tooth pick and it's still numb but this is defiantly a good sign. I was also jumping every 5 minutes because I was getting very sharp shooting pains in my cheeks and nose. They're so annoying and Im ready for them to take a hike now. Some days are worse than others but this evening especially they've been very frequent and severe. 

I went to bed at about 11pm and fell asleep ok... Ish 

Recovery Day 63 - 18th February 2013

Woke up at 8am and felt more tired than when I went to bed. My teeth were killing, they felt sensitive and achy. My chin was up too it's old electric shock tricks and my ears were deaf. I took some pain killers and sat up in bed for a bit while they snapped into action. 

After getting washed and dressed and changing my bands I had some scrambled egg for breakfast. It was pretty vile really. I'm not sure what mum does to her scrambled eggs to make them so amazing but she's not up for sharing! To make matters worse Matt had a gloriously delicious smelling bacon butty !!

We went to our friends late morning and it was lovely to see her and her little boy. I was really struggling with the shooting pains and electric shocks. I think it was because of the excess chatting, smiling and laughing. It was all worth it though to have a catch up with a good friend. 

After we'd finished at our friends we headed up north to the lakes to visit Matts mum and dad. On the way I took some pain killers, my put my chilli cream on and rested my mouth as I knew I'd be in for more chatting when we arrived! 

Matts mum had already asked what I could eat, eating is still such a tough one. I can eat pasta but only my special pasta and I can eat certain foods providing I've adapted them to suit me. In the end she made broccoli and Stilton soup to start, macaroni cheese for main and cookies and cream ice cream for dessert. It was delicious and even though the bread with soup looked and smelt delicious and the fresh salad and garlic bread with the mac and cheese looked yummy I pushed them out of my mind and enjoyed my food immensely. 

We haven't seen matts mum and dad since the day before I was admitted into hospital as they've been away so there was lots to catch up on. After a few hours I'd reached my talking limit and it was time to head home. On the way home I just wanted to rest but it was dark and late and I didn't want to leave Matt driving alone so I persevered to keep him company. 

When we eventually got home I was shattered, sore and more puffy than usual! I headed straight to bed and fell fast asleep straight away. 

Recovery Day 62 - 17th February 2013

Woke up at 08:30 and felt awful, thick head, deaf ears, sore gums, aching teeth and sore ears, cheeks and nose. If this is what a good nights sleep does for you I might be better struggling!! Hubby fetched me a fresh drink and I got some paracetamol and ibuprofen down me. I then sat up in bed for 10 minutes then forced myself to get up. As I was still feeling rough and hated what I was seeing in the mirror I decided that I might benefit from a little pampering. I got a shower and put a conditioning treatment on my hair, I persevered and gave my teeth a really long, thorough brush (not pleasant, teeth brushing is agony at the moment)  I smothered myself in moisturising oil then dried and straightened my hair.

As a treat Matt made me soft pancakes for breakfast, I had Nutella and squashed blueberries on mine. After breakfast I finished getting dressed then went to get my nails done and my eyebrows waxed with mum. I felt a little nicer after my pampering but i was sore after trying to chat to the beautician. I spent the afternoon with mum and dad and dad washed my car for me (bonus!)  

For tea mum made steak and chips for her and dad, it smelt amazing and I'm not really a fan of steak. For me she made mashed sweet potato, roasted tomatoes and steak gravy. It was delicious. Dessert was mashed pears and ice cream. That was also very enjoyable. Mum definitely gets an A* for imagination and creativity!! 

The evening was spent chilling out, I was on my iPad, dad was on his iPad and mum was on her iPhone.... This is what modern day life has come to, but for tonight it enabled me to rest my tired jaw so I can't complain! 

I went home at about 10 and went straight to bed with some painkillers, I hope my teeth stop hurting soon because they're driving me mad, as is my electric chin. Matt forgot I'm having issues with my chin and stroked it tonight, after I'd peeled myself off the ceiling I was close to launching him across the room, but lucky for him I refrained!! 

To further assist with my pampering I covered my face with sudocreme do please excuse my white face on my mugshots!! 

I struggled together to sleep again, it took nearly 3 hours of tossing and turning to finally drop off. 

Recovery Day 61 - 16th February 2013

Woke up at 8:30, I was shattered so annoyed to be awake! Now I was awake there was no chance of going back to sleep as my gums and teeth where absolutely killing me. Got hubby to go and get me a drink so I could get some painkillers down me. After I'd taken my painkillers I sat in bed and after an hour or so I felt ok so got up. 

I had some ready brek with cinnamon for breakfast, then my mummy picked me up to babysit me for the afternoon while Matt was at work! It's better to have company or I just end up sat thinking 'ow, ouch, I'm in pain. My teeth are hurting, my chin is hurting etc' we nipped up to my aunties but she wasn't in, at least we got a little run in the car.

On the way home we stopped off in the village, we had a look round a few shops and we went into the fruit and veg shop. Mum picked a load of pink lady apples, wow the looked lovely. If theres one thing I can't eat in my condition... its apple.  Mum was cruel and ate an apple right in front of me, my mouth was literally watering. when we got back to hers she made me her special scrambled egg for lunch then for dessert she softened and grated some apple for me. It tasted so fresh, and I really enjoyed it. My teeth were killing me so I had some pain killers and did the chilli cream routine. 

In the afternoon I accompanied mum and dad to the supermarket, on the way home dad wanted to take us to Frankie and Bennys, but I had to decline as I was too sore and tired to start faffing around with food. I didn't want him to spend money on a meal that I may not be able to eat or enjoy. Things must be bad if I'm refusing to dine out.... Its my favourite past time! We had homemade chicken korma for tea, it wasn't up to the take away standard but it was nice. I can't complain at flavoursome sloppy meals! I'm grateful for anything that isn't soup! As I was eating my tea we heard 'ping' it was a band snapping.... How rude! Then when I was eating my yogurt for dessert we heard  a'ping' again and the other one popped off. So now I'm going to carry some spares round with me because I have to wear them constantly. From the picture you can see the size difference between the new and old bands.   

Matt came to pick me up when he finished work, I was tired and sore but was hoping for a good nights sleep. Im feeling really rough at the moment, the pain is pretty much worse now than when I first had the operation, I'm not enjoying my fat face, the rest of my body is fairly skinny so my face looks even more fatter and even more out of proportion. I know it's got to be like this for ever but I feel like people are looking at me all the time. The new elastics are so small they're  restricting my mouth opening and effecting my speech. 

Luckily I fell asleep nice and easy!! Aaahhhhhhh..... About time! 

Recovery Day 60 - 15th February 2013

I woke up at 8:30, usual thick head, my chin is still sending very unpleasant shocks up my face and my teeth are absolutely killing me! I got up and took some tablets.

Then being the domestic goddess I am, I prepared our tea of chilli and made a shepherds pie for Matts lunch over the weekend while he's working. After my cooking expedition I had a little clean up, then got dressed. Washing my face and cleaning my teeth has become unbearable at the moment. Any stimulation on my chin or gum is driving me mad, this side effect is a nightmare and I'm totally fed up with it. I've been using the chilli cream but I'm not sure if its doing anything... Apart from burning my lip when it finds its way there!! (I'm possibly just bring impatient as the instructions said allow 6 weeks to work)

Matt popped home for lunch and we had last nights left over curry for lunch, Matt had a garlic naan with his, god it smelt good, I tried a tiny piece but I didn't have the strength to chew it. When he went back to work I came over all lethargic and cold, probably by having an active morning. I put the heating on and went and sat on my bed with the dogs. I didn't move all afternoon and spent some time reading and looking on the Internet. 

Before I knew it, it was 5pm and Matt was home from work. We got wrapped up and took the dogs for a little walk to see my dad at his work. We were out for about 40 minutes and on the way home I was really struggling with the cold as it had started to go dark and temperature took a real drop. 

For tea we had chilli with rice, it was very nice and for dessert I had Reeses peanut cups that I melted in the microwave. I never liked chocolate until this operation, where melted chocolate has entered my diet. So many other things have vacated my diet so i'll allow myself chocolate until normal service resumes!!

After watching some TV we went to bed, once again I struggled to sleep. I'm not sure if I'm struggle to sleep because I can hear a pulse / heartbeat in my head of because my mind is over thinking things or because I'm in pain. It's probably a combination of them all!!